wish me luck

tomorrow at 6pm at Kaleide theatre, there are auditions for the play 'Sexual Peversion in Chicago' by David Mammet, which Theatre in Bars - the RMIT collective will be staging in the first two weeks of August.
Even though it was my idea to do the show, and I helped pick the script - apparently I'm not gauranteed of getting a role, and if I don't get a role, it doesn't look like I'm gauranteed of being asked to do much else either.
I hate it when you don't know what someone thinks of you - the director is a really lovely chick, and I know she lkes me as a person, but it's hard to tell what she thinks about me regarding theatre stuff... I hate that... if she doesn't think any of the parts will suit me, I wish she would say instead of this whole "oooohhh you know, you might not get one of the parts..... sorry.... it's weird though isn't it? It will be weird if you don't..?" like - what am I supposed to do? not auditon at all? am I supposed to read her mind and be able to tell that she doesn't want me? HUH?
ehch....
anyhoo - I hope that I do ok tomorrow, and I hope I get one of the parts - and if there are any aspiring actors out there, y'all encouraged to come along!!!!

ps. things with Kim are good - it's settled into a nice little arangement now. I might have to have an 'update talk' with him soon - just to make sure everythings still all good on both sides. i"m more comfortable around him... I'm still not sure what his 'deal' is but.... I'm happy to ignore all that stuff for a while and go with the flow...