Monday, May 15, 2006

warning: tantie ahead!

I was going to write this whole post about how much I'm pissed off with Si at the moment.
I can't really be bothered now.
Just, to cut a long story short - I don't care how casual a relationship is, it's still a friendship, and you don't fuck your friends around the way he fucked me around yesterday.
It's NOT ok to call someone at 2pm and organise to hang out and then after not ringing back or txting anything for 3 hours, then saying 'yes I'll be there soon' and then another 3 hours and then 'oh, I'm going home'.
I waited around my house for a whole day, because he said he was coming over. I'm not saying that I cancelled any great plans, but I could have had something - he didn't know...
I feel shit that he thinks that it's ok for him to pick me up whenever he wants and drop me off just as casually.
Like I said - this isn't even about sex or relationships or whatever - this is about friendship, and I would never do that to a friend.
I have come to expect this kind of behaviour from some other people recently... now I've got another name to add to my list of "people not to trust".
I don't care if that's harsh...
how dare he.

6 Comments:

Blogger Alex Mills said...

Do you think he actually sees it as a friendship though?

5:37 PM  
Blogger ekstasis said...

ok, I know people don't always say what they mean, but we have had long conversations about how we really like each other as friends, and if nothing else - we want that out of what we have... Like last weekend when I said that we were just going to be friends from now on (that stuck for like, 5 mins) he said he was really sad about it, but he understood why...

today he sent me an email at work - something about 'i didn't realise you'd be so cut about it' or something like that. And that it was a 'shitcunt thing to do' - but I don't think he actually gets it...

someone else said 'it's just a boy thing' but I don't get that from ALL the boys I know... just a couple of them.

I've realised today that I've been particularly angsty the last couple of days though, and I seem to be spitting the dummy alot more than usual. (No, I'm not due for 'that time of the month') so maybe I'm overeacting?

6:41 PM  
Blogger Alex Mills said...

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11:51 AM  
Blogger Alex Mills said...

I don't want to sound harsh, but I think it's fair to say that your attitudes and behaviour will dictate how other people treat you, and in a broader sense perceive you.

11:52 AM  
Blogger ekstasis said...

I don't understand how that's harsh?
I don't understand what you're trying to say?

As a follow-up to this post, I have to say that Si actually has come back into the good books... He sent me a txt (I know that's a juevenile thing to do, but I do it to cos I don't like talking on the phone so I'm fine with it) saying sorry and that I didn't deserve that kind of treatment and that he thinks I'm really fun to hang out with and hopes that we still will. Now, I've got to say that I think it was the best apology I've ever had - the most real, genuine sounding apology. I was MIGHTY impressed I must say - and I sent back a txt to that affect... but also saying that I think we should lean towards the 'friendship' side of things rather than the 'sexy' side.
That was all good... we were all good.... untill he called me last week to meet up 'for dinner' at 12.30am... hehehehe - I just have no self controll apparently and the friend thing hasn't really stuck. But I think it's all going to be ok. We went and saw a movie and stuff - and I still have no idea what's going on... but I think it's ok to keep floating. Or... it's ok for now . I think I might take the Emu approach and stick my head in the sand untill something bites me on the arse.

12:44 PM  
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