what do you want?

I’m Confused
(well… that’s hardly a surprise… but bear with me)

I don’t get boys
(stay with me for one moment)

I’m confused about boys.
(just one more sec please)

Last night, I got an out of the blue txt from Phone Sex Boy (aka PSB). PSB is the boy that a few months ago I had a rather intense/fun/sexy phone conversation with (I can’t remember if I wrote about this or not…), who a day later promptly freaked out and said that he felt like he had cheated on his girlfriend (I don’t know if I agree with him or not… I guess I wouldn’t like any boyfriend of mine having the conversation that PSB and I had with other girls). Anyway, he’s the one who freaked out. I took the ‘whatever’ attitude – as I knew that it was nothing serious, and although I would have really liked to do everything that we talked about in real life, I knew he had a girlfriend – so there was no real option.
But like I said, last night I got an out of the blue txt. Well, almost out of the blue. The extended version of the story goes like this:
A couple of weeks ago he txted me asking if I was angry at him – as whenever he got online and said hello to me, I apparently logged off. I told him that I hadn’t been using the internet much, and it must have been my housemates on my computer. I had, though, decided after the ‘episode’ however far back, that I would give him a lot of space, and I hadn’t bothered trying to make contact.
On Friday night, he txted me again, asking about a dress-up party and suggestions. A small converstation ensued – most of which is unimportant, aside from me reminding him that we always meant to catch up for drinks, and never had. He said that we would – in 3 weeks in the City. -> 3 weeks… I know – obscure, but hey, whatever.
THEN:
Last night I got a txt. “Saturday night was mad! U woulda loved it. I was such a slut. How come u r never on msn anymore? Drinks 2 weeks in the city!”
Totally random, in my opinion – as we have never ever ever ever had a random conversation through txt that wasn’t started online (we don’t ever see each other really, and have really only had sexy conversations). Also – “I was such a slut” – I know probably just means that he looked all transvestited-up, but I could read so many things into that one little sentence it’s not funny.
I replied: “U? A slut?! NEVER! ;) I don’t really have the net anymore – it’s dans account so that’s why… Plus my supply of phone sex [I meant to say cyber sex, but was distracted] dried up so I’ve had to venture out into the world and get some for real!”
PSB: “Oops sorry bout the phone sex. I need a cap plan. I have a video phone now tho. Tell me who u been getting it on with?”
-> wtf? “I need a cap plan”? I don’t get that either – does that mean he wants more conversations with me??? Does that mean anything at all??? I have no idea…
----I’m probably over-analysing right?----
so – we had a very long textual conversation – me saying that I’d started fuckapalooza, and asking him how he was and what was going on with him. This was my very very gentle way of asking him if he was still with his girlfriend (he probably is, they’re long-term), to which he never made a reply. He told me nothing about his life and what was going on (another reason why he’s probably still with her).
I (perhaps somewhat foolishly) decided to send him a very kinky pic (not of myself I’ll have you know) that someone had once sent me of a couple of girls together to christen his phone for him.
Then for the rest of the night he sent me porn pics on my phone of girls sucking, fucking, getting fucked, and getting ‘shot in the face’ so to speak… I’ll admit – I was responding pretty positively to this, I’ve always liked a kinky conversation. But the thing that shits me is that he’ll never do anything about it – so, in my opinion, is the biggest cunt-tease ever.
At one point I said: “so much for not crossing the line hey?” – as this was something that he’d said to me after the phone conversation. He sent back something to the tune of “oops, I am just really horny I spose”.
At another point I said: “SO looking forward to that catch-up drink ey! That’s going to be interesting!” meaning it would be uncomfortable-making. I also said: “You are just SO all talk and fluff. U need to get out into the real world and play with the rest of us” (I was getting a little tired of it all by this stage)
His reply: “That is truly true. Unfortunately I don’t know if I could handle u out in the real world! But you do make a very good point.” And then to something else I said: “Never say never! But in all honesty, not when we have drinks. Unless u force me… which wouldn’t be all bad.”

OH I almost forgot to mention (this is one of the punchlines) - the very last pic he sent me was one of his erect penis, saying something like 'this is where you can sit' or something like that...

WHAT THE FUCK PEOPLE?!?!??!??!

What the hell does all of that mean exactly? Does he, or doesn’t he want to get together? Or did he just need some chick to talk to while he wanked?? I don’t fucking understand what exactly went on. “Unless you force me”?????? like I’m some predator or something…

BUT I’ll go for drinks, if indeed he was actually serious about that bit… and see what the hell is going on. In fact, I’m going to ask him. I was content and excited by the initial stuff, but since then – I’ve been out and getting it for real* and I seriously don’t need his meek little attempt at sexiness…

If anyone would like to help me decipher this obviously confused boy…. It would be muchly appreciated. I need to know whether to bother pretty-ing myself up for our catch-up when/if it happens. I want to know what his intentions are.

In hindsite - that would have been a very good question to ask...

*during this whole fiasco - I actually also got a txt from Theo... a very nice sexy txt. I didn't say I wasn't in demand! ;)